You are probably in shock – is Ms Carmen REALLY writing in her blog??  Yes yes, I know…  I am like the world’s worst at blogging regularly.  Boys and Girls, I promise I will do better.  I just get so caught up in wonderful phone sex calls and working on websites and.. mmmmm.. playing.

I’ve been doing a LOT of playing lately.  It must be the hint of spring that is spreading throughout the Pacific Northwest.  It gets me going; it really does. It’s as though the world has opened up to me and I want to take advantage of every minute I can.  Alanna and I have done a lot of traveling and played with lots of different groups of people… you do know how I love to play in groups.  There is something about lots of moans and pleasure sounds all at once, together with the feeling of different skin textures pressed against me, different tastes and scents.. mmmm I love it.  Especially in a room lit only by candles.

My strongest passion (pun intended), is not only to play with a group, but to direct the group.  I’m sure that’s no surprise to you. Yes, I have them all do as I instruct.  It’s like orchestrating some big, live, erotic tableau of moving flesh and sound.  All of you secret gang bang sluts will love this… I frequently command scenes whereby one lovely little subbie is set upon by many well-hung, muscular men who do to him as I command. He might have to suck one off while another fucks his ass and yet others cum all over him.  It just depends on my mood.   Mmmm I love that power, I do.

I find myself becoming more and more dominant than ever before.  And I don’t mean in terms of whips and chains… as I’ve said before, those days are over.  I simply want things my way, for me.  And that means no, I’m not interested in holding a key for your chastity device because I think chastity devices indulge and encourage weakness.  It’s fine for others, don’t get me wrong.  This is just my way of looking at it.  I don’t want you to leave your cock alone; I want you to do with it what I want.. I want to hear you stroke, hear your breath catch as I fuck you, and I want to know that you are aching for me when I’m not around.  I don’t expect you to wimp around with a piece of plastic on your cock, because you never know when I might suddenly order you to drop trou and start whacking off.. no matter where you are.  Get it?  It’s up to me.  And if that doesn’t work for you… there are many other excellent Mistresses here you can call and whine to.

Yes, I do love to feminize sissies.. I get asked that over and over again.  But I’m in charge and I will tell you what to wear and who to suck off.  I applaud those of you who don’t play coy and come right out and admit you love and need cock.  Yay!  That’s more for me to play with and more for me to control.  Bring on those panties, sissy boy, because I will totally encourage you to be femme and get your little pussy ass fucked hard.

Mmmmm.. getting aroused just thinking about all of this.  I told a caller this morning that I love to tease my own nipples when I’m thinking about my clients and my power over them, and he suggested I blog about the fact that I am sitting here in panties and a camisole, wrapped in a faux fur blanket, teasing my nipples and occasionally sliding my hand down my panties to play.  He seemed to think you would like to know that, Boys and Girls.  And that when Alanna comes home I will order one of our sissy maids to put lotion on our naked bodies and serve us as we make love.  That’s what will happen this evening when I sign off from calls.  See what the power I wield over my callers does for me?  Mmmmm…